So here goes my first post to what is my attempt at a blog and getting some of my bottled up feelings out. My hopes in all of this are to unload some stress for myself and maybe help someone else along the way. I deal with my depression on a daily basis and get so tied of these feelings that I have. It is so hard to deal with for myself then to be a wife and a mother of three kids. Another struggle that I have is that my oldest is Autistic. I know that my depression effects others around me. My deepest fear is that it effects my oldest that most. That it effects his proggress and daily struggle as well. I have often wondered if me being around him is more harm then good. But, Then I know that he needs my love ans support no matter what my faults may be.
All I know is that finally seeking help after living wtih this monster of depression all these years I hope that something happens. My hopes and prayers are for me to one day to not have these feelings and to be able to smile without it being FAKE!
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